and we ask that You not occupy our hearts with other than You

"Assalamualaikum

Kaifa Ha Lu Kum?"

Muahahaha! He just sms-ed. Enquiring whether I will be in school tomorrow. Harhar. Macam dia tahu jer, that I am missing him and was hoping that he would sms or even call.

And at the end of the sms-es, he said 'good night and sweet dreams'. Haha. To me, right now, the sweetest dreams would be dreams of him. Tempted to tell him that. Hehehe. But of course, I refrain from telling him all that. Cause it's oh-so improper. Rite?

What does he want eh? Fancy asking whether I will be coming to school tomorrow, and whether I will be there at the said time. So tomorrow, right after FP, will be going straight to school instead of grandma's place first, for lunch and zohor. All because of him I will have to eat lunch and do my zohor in school.

OR, I can always have lunch at IYAD. It's free and most of the time delicious. So, why not ya?

Nervous, nervous. What does he want? What would I have to say? Aiyoh...and me being me, brain will fail to function fully whenever I am around him. Issshh...geram seh!

Today marks the first day of my fourth year in Pergas. Went to school alone. Went back alone. A loner. Total sadness. No more best friend and no more sister to accompany me in class and to and fro school.

"WHY, o why did you leave me all alone, Aini?"

Estatic, cause we got Ustaz Syed Mustafa again! Yippppeeeeee!

And we got Ustazah Holdiyah too (yet AGAIN????) Yawnn!!! Ya Allah!!!

Tomorrow, will be the first day of field practicum. So not looking forward to it. BUT, "POSITIVE THINKING", people...!!! You do want to win in the battle, rite?

~~~~~From m3 to hiM~~~~~

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Mendambakan kasih insan yang ku sayang.