i was a fool.

"Bismillah..."

Ya ALLAH!!!! Why did I blow the only chance I had to impress???

If only I could turn back time!!! I would correct every single one of my act!!! I seriously would.

I stood there smiling, and no word came out from my big mouth, while I 'salam' your mum. I was way too shy!!!! I was!!!! You shouldn't have showed her to me there!!! I was embarrased!! The other friends who know nuts about us were looking and slyly smiling.

They were teasing with their eyes and god knows what were running through their mind.

Arggghh!! Give me another chance dear one, to correct ur mum's impression on me, the foolish one.

And now I am all stressed up. And keep on replaying the humiliating scene in my mind!!

But, thanks to Allah, for your sms. It sort of comforted me and calmed me. Now, I can stop replaying the humiliating scene. "STOP!"

You said your mum didn't mind. Are you being honest or just saying those words to calm me down?

Hopefully, it's not the latter.

"Ya Allah!
Seandainya telah engkau catatkan
Dia milikku tercipta buatku
Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Titipkanlah kebahagiaan antara kami
Agar kemesraan itu abadi

Ya Allah! Ya Tuhanku yang maha mengasihani
Seiringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini
Ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi
Maka jodohkanlah kami

Tetapi Ya Allah!
Seandainya telah engkau takdirkan
Dia bukan milikku
Bawalah dia jauh dari pandanganku
Luputkanlah dia dari ingatanku
Dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan!"