i'm STRESSED!

"Bismillah..."

The stress is getting to me. When stress level is up, immunity level goes down. And maybe that is why my migraine just won't go away. It has been with me since morning. Arrrghh!

I feel like breaking down and run away from the harsh reality of life but I can't. At times like this, I seek to ALLAH swt and friends...to help me go thru life.

So help me please....doa for me!

Me and Yana decided to skip our 1 hr CDEV tutorial, to be at the centre to do up our maths learning corner. In the end, both of us didn't go to the centre because it's impossible. In the morning the other 2 student teachers were having their assessment, and in the afternoon the children will be at our space, sleeping. And so it's impossible for us to be working there. Will be creating the learning corner this Saturday than.

And I found out at 2.55pm today that skipping the tutorial was a bad decision made. Sukuna, our lecturer, said that she will only accept MCs from the absentees. She threatens to make the absentees repeat the whole CDEV module, by taking away 20% from our total grade and bla bla. My friends advised me to get an MC which I did not. Waste of my time and money, faking a sickness. So, praying hard that I don't have to repeat the whole module again, just because I skipped an hr tutorial. It's insane, my attendance for this module has been good! IF she does make me repeat the module.....what am I to do?

Ya ALLAH, hopefully, NO, I don't have to repeat this module.

It has been 5 days since I last set eyes on him. 5 days ain't that long but I don't feel likewise. No more sms-es from him, no more calls. No more going home with him, no more talking. No more seeing him smile, no more making me laugh.

Sms-ed him yesterday, just to ask him how he was...and he told me he was busy with assignments, just like me.

Hoping to meet up with him soon. Cause I can't take it any longer...

Subhanallah!

"Ya Allah, kau duga hambaMu ini dengan perasaan cinta dan rindu terhadap seorang lagi hambaMu. Ya Allah, hambaMu ini lemah, tidak dapat lagi menahan rasa rindu di hati..."

"Ana Ahinnu Ilaika....!"