emotional mondays

emotional mondays.

mondays have always been emotional.
this monday, is no exception.

"i guess, u just cannot hear it in my voice, and see it in my eyes."

the pain behind this smile. only a handful can detect.
and only a few can truly appreciate it.

i am sad that i dissapoint u time and again.
i am never good at this.
and maybe, i never will.

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it is heart-wrenching.
that i have come to a state where, i am denying all that is good.

if u say i'm pretty. i say, u're blind.
if u say that u miss me. i say, u're lying.

mixed of emotions.

i am so in the mood to cry.

so how?