forgetting

May Peace Be Upon You,

My maternal-side of the family is now at ECP, picnic-ing. And I am at home, 'curi pakai' my sister's laptop. I know my grandparents and aunts are disappointed that I chose not to turn up for the family outing. But I cannot force myself to smile and enjoy the day, when actually my heart is crying. I need time off from some things, but especially from her and her.

I thought she would be the most understanding one. Will understand all my woes.
But it wasn't the case yesterday. She said "bising lah!", when I kept sniffling to keep my tears down.
Hati mana yang tak akan remuk.....

You are my best friend, my pillar of support.
But why are you so insensitive nowadays?

Or maybe it's just me? Am I being overly sensitive?

I don't know. And I have no answers to all these.

Maybe, I'm fated to help but not be helped.

I am tired. Emotionally-tired.

And now I am braving the storm alone. All alone. Only tears and hope, accompanying me through this journey.



Everytime my thoughts are on you, the tears never fail to appear.
But how sad, __________________________
Now, I know for sure, I mean nothing to you.
So, I guess, its only apt for me to start forgetting...

And this song? how PERFECT.